a 'love note'

few days ago i sent a note to someone, a ridiculous one. hahahaha...

i don't even know what i was thinking. this just for a joke. yeah,,,

let's consider this a joke. i don't want it to be real. cause he's not worth enough, i think. at least. whatever.

dear,

wait, i know what you thinking, yea this is a very absurd

you must be very wonder, what with this sudden...

but i just need to tell you something that really really disturbing me.

okay, *deeply breathe*

this is gonna be much more absurd but,

i think i fall for you. sigh.

if wondering why, i got no answer.

i think you're just one of a kind.

trust me, i've been trying to deny it all the time, but it keeps appear in my mind.

and i kinda hate it.

yea.. yea.. i know. this is so laughable.

you may laughing out loud there when reading this.

and yea.. that's just such a cheesy confession yet the lamest one, isn't it?

and if you're asking me why i wrote you this,

believe me, i don't know either.

having a glance of you in my mind is annoying me.

i always try to find some distractions.

but it didn't work it.

and i hate it.

*sigh* i just need a closure,

i don't like this kind of feeling coz this doesn't feel really good.

i've been here before,in this kind of situation.

and as long as i could remember, it did hurt.

so, writing you this, i just want to relieve my feeling.

hoping that this kind of feeling will stop.

before it grows bigger and deeper.

and turn into a hope.

because i know that would be more hurt.

this ain't a 'love letter' or what.

this just a note. that probably you'll leave it after you read it.

if you think i just embarrassing my self, well, maybe i do.

but i don't really care about it. i'm doing this for myself.

so, after you read this,

you may think i'm such a weirdo or such a freak, will you?

oh yes. maybe i am.

but again, i don't wanna care of it.

that's it.

sorry for confusing you.

regard

-intan-

hahaha.. damned! deep inside i wish i never knew him. or even meet him.

that would be alot better i guess..